Enjoying the Present

My dad is convinced that as you age, you romanticize your past. This explains why when my great great aunt came to live with us at the age of 94, she talked about her deceased husband as “a saint”. He joked that he wants to go first so we can have time to remember him as a saint too. He doesn’t know it, but if he died tomorrow, he’d already be remembered as one. He’s one of the most generous and thoughtful people I know. But we’ll save that for another post.

I think there is some truth to this “romanticizing your past” theory. I see it happening already. The other day I mentioned to my husband that I didn’t think our older two boys had the “terrible twos” nearly as bad as our toddler does. He laughed at me. He reminded me that, yes, in fact, they had it every bit as bad as our two year old does now. And let’s not even talk about women’s memory regarding childbirth… can anyone say “rose -colored -glasses”?

But despite our desire to look at the past positively, I do think there are certain seasons and chapters in life that are just plain great: that we can appreciate fully even when we’re in them. I feel like I’m in one now. My husband and I are blessed in so many ways. And as we approach Christmas, I’m especially mindful of the sweet ages of my boys. Their anticipation and joy is palpable. And their desire to give generously is truly touching.

(here are the older two with Grandpa... Christmas 2008)

(Look at that joy!)

Recently they spent hours in the basement secretly working on gifts for us that they brought out when we decorated the tree.

It took me a few minutes to get over the fact that my tree wouldn't look like something that belonged in a magazine....

Until I realized it couldn't be more beautiful....

I know that this chapter won’t last forever. Recently I read an article from my beloved Erma Bombeck, “Christmas Chimes”. It made me know that this time really is something to treasure and that there is plenty of romance already present.

Christmas Chimes

Everything is in readiness.

The tree is trimmed. The cards taped to the door frame. The boxes stacked in glittering disarray under the tree.

Why don’t I hear chimes?

Remember the small boy who made the chimes ring in a fictional story years ago? As the legend went, the chimes would not ring unless a gift of love was placed on the altar. Kings and men of great wealth placed untold jewels there, but year after year the church remained silent.

Then one Christmas Eve, a small child in a tattered coat made his way down the aisle, and without anyone noticing he took off his coat and placed it on the altar. The chimes rang out joyously throughout the land to mark the unselfish giving of a small boy.

I used to hear chimes.

I heard them the year one of my sons gave me a tattered piece of construction paper on which he had crayoned two hands folded in prayer and a moving message, OH COME HOLY SPIT!

I heard them the year I got a shoe box that contained two baseball cards and the gum was still with them.

I heard them the Christmas they all got together and cleaned the garage.

They’re gone, aren’t they? The years of the lace doilies fashioned into snowflakes … the hands traced in plaster of paris … the Christmas trees of pipe cleaners … the thread spools that held small candles. They’re gone.

The chubby hands that clumsily used up $2 worth of paper to wrap a cork coaster are sophisticated enough to take a number and have the gift wrapped professionally.

The childish decision of when to break the ceramic piggy bank with a hammer to spring the 59 cents is now resolved by a credit card.

The muted thump of pajama-covered feet padding down the stairs to tuck her homemade crumb scrapers beneath the tree has given way to pantyhose and fashion boots to the knee.

It’ll be a good Christmas. We’ll eat too much. Make a mess in the living room. Throw the warranties into the fire by mistake. Drive the dog crazy taping bows to his tail. Return cookies to the plate with a bite out of them. Listen to Christmas music.

But Lord … what I would give to bend low and receive a gift of toothpicks and library paste and hear the chimes just one more time!